ydt my ward was in a mess.. there was a china girl who was accompanied wif her sis got admitted.. i think this china girl hab undergo mental break down cox she kept doing funny action and bitting her sis.. she kept saying things ard her were veri dirty and refused to sit or lay in bed.. she even throw the cup of hot milo onto the floor and luckily none of us got burn by the hot milo.. but sad to say the milo made our skirt real dirty!! when all of us were abt to go home she kept walking ard and refused to go back to bed.. den one of the stuff nurse kindly ask her to go back but she screamed at her so loudly.. so scary!!


today didnt go to WILL house and spent e whole day at home wif my sis.. did quite a loads of housework.. wash the toilet in my room and pack e wardrobe!! my whole body is aching now


hang on gals 5 more days to our holiday

while i am having my break, the lecturer came in mi and ask whether i took the hospital shutter bus to the mrt station.. actually i dun really take tat and i only take when accompanied by friend or i will rather take bus.. at that point of time i am so panic and i tot she here to scold mi again.. but luckily she here to tell mi gab place to the visitor and take the bus when there are extra seats.. phew =.="

i am so unlucky today..


1. woke up late and hab to take a taxi for attachment which cost 16bucks
2. i was 10mins late for my today attachment
3. got a fight wif the lecturer
4. felt so lonely during my attachment
5. wanna take bus 123 to town but get into a wrong bus 153.. and bring mi to a place which i hab never been to.. taxi again
6. our relationship is deterioating



i so depressed and cried so badly!! really cant stand this kind of life anymore.. i really hate my lecturer.. she's a old freak wif a big mouth!!

hooray!! hppray!! hooray!! today is my last day of exam.. i am so happy!! no more locking myself in room n studying!! no more books!! no more waking up early to study!!

BUT

attachment start next monday.. 3weeks!!

how are you going to show how deep you love ur gf/bf ?? just by telling her/him the 3 words.. "I LOVE U"..?? that is simply not enough.. so how to??

happy new year!!

my 4days of holiday gone!! WILL came to my house on wed and as usual he was late.. sitting half way in my living room i saw my ah ma and uncle walking out the lift.. they were here to see my new house.. so embarrass!! when my ah ma was abt to leave she walked toward WILL and hold his hand.. she look veri happy and ask mi to bring him to visit her the next time =.="


den when out wif WILL to have our dinner.. yummy yummy!! there was a couple sitting in front of us and the girl was actually eating a bowl of green grass and the guy in front of her was eating steak.. they are really those tipical newly couple!! so funny.. so sad case for the girl!! her saliva must be dripping non-stop.. wakakaka!!

no more!!

=.=" something veri scary happened in my ward today..


one of the stuff nurse was happily feeding bread to one of the patient who was from imh and will be discharge today in the evening.. we will happy chatting away and saying tat this patient was so cute and smart.. den the next moment this patient sudden get choke by the bread.. and go into cynosis!! first time in my life i see patient going into cynosis state.. his face really turn bluish.. den the stuff nurse quickly turn the patient to lateral position and dig out the food in his mouth.. at tat period of time i was thinking will he die of choking..



luckily he got save by the stuff nurse.. and now i really noe how it look like when patient is in a cynosis state.. phew!!



here are sum of the new thing i hab learn in hospital this few day.. collecting of urine c/s and FEME, gab medication, gab injection although i still didnt learn yet.. pethidine and maxolon intramuscular to a patient to relief his pain cox he is on traction.. and i also manage to see doctor inserting urinary catheter for male patient.. hopefully next week i can get caroline to assess my dressing, off plug myself, gab feet edema or suppository and suctioning..

tire!! busy!! tire!! busy!!



i am physically drained.. i am so busy for the past few day and hab less den 5hrs of sleep per day and as a result i am sick now.. cough!! flu!! fever!!



ytd i spent a very sweet night wif WILL.. we finally went down to chinatown to eat my fav frog leg and porriage which he promise mi long time ago.. i waited him for abt 5hrs before we can actually leave cox there were still loads of pp and he close his shop quite late.. by the time we reached there was already 10.30pm.. after our supper we when for a walk at the night market.. the shop selling the same old stuff during every cny.. heehee he bought a ring for mi :) love it so much.. by the time we when home was already 12 plus!! tire..


next day in the morning i hab to wake up at 5am cox i am working morning today.. nearly get late!! during my trip down to hospital i suddenly hab a feeling to gab up nursing cox i am so tire and was thinking am i really prepared to show my commitment for this future career.. but after i reached the hospital, saw all the poor and ill patient and started our daily routain like bathing the pt, feeding them and caring them this gab mi a stronger determintation to be a nurse cox the patient in the hosiptal really need our help..




i am in ward12 orthopaedics and the clinical instructor was Caroline.. she super nice to us.. although i keep saying she the angel wif devil heart bt she really prove to mi that she not!! so great to hab her!! learn quite a loads of stuff today!! i really hab more oppprtunity to learn more stuff cox no more ite student and np student fighting for the work.. manage to take urine for c/s test from the catheters and admission for the patient.. hopefully i can do NG tube feeding, preoperation and sitz bath tml..


=.=" working morning tml again..


exam coming and i really hab to start my revision soon

i am so bad luck today.. the story go like this.. grace n mi went to the lab to print out our project and to ask the techician to connect my wireless access for my labtop.. so to save time i ask grace to help mi to find the techician and i go n print the project.. den after printing i went n find grace but the techician said there are sum file missing and he need time to locate the file so i told the techician tat i wil cum back later.. so we down to lect hall to prepare for our later presentation at 2pm..


so after our role play i went up to find the techician but unfortunately the techician went for their lunch and my labtop was lock inside the room.. i was so pinic!! den i remember i still hab my timb drive and we can use my other friend labtop to present instead .. den i realise i hab left my timb drive inside the com lab when i went to print my project jus now.. by the time i went back to find my timb drive it was no longer there and was taken away by sum other student.. so i am even more pinic!! but luckily grace hab save the project in her email but tat one was the one tat was not modified..


den weqiang said we shall wait till the last minute.. if the techician never come back before 2pm we will go.. but luckily at 2pm sharp the techician was back.. so luckily!!


but i still lost my timb drive.. so sad case!!


went out wif sis in the evening and we bought two pair of shoes and one top.. kinda happy cox i long time never buy shoes lo.. this time round the shoes i bought not sneaker but shoes tat look more mature.. both look beautiful!!

actually wat i post today was a history of last sat.. i hab a veri good lunch wif WILL at kotong eating my fav laksa..

+so clean+

+him+

den when out wif all my deary friends in the evening.. here are sum of the pic i took while we were eating the chocolate dip.. yummy!!

+yummy+

+hungry ghost+

+sumone missing+

hooray!! finally i finish my malay test.. i really hope i can get a B for my this module cox i dun wan to get any more C or D for this sem!!


-.-" one more week to my clinical placement.. and 4 more weeks to my exam!! so stress.. i am habing a pimples outbreak and my face is so ugly now.. hopefully it will get better this week!!

slack for the whole afternoon at home watching tv.. veri moody and lazy!!


went to my grandma house later in the evening to celebrate her 80 yrs old birthday.. cant imagin she is 80 yrs old now.. still look so healthy!! chit chat for at least 4 hrs wif all my family member.. there were abt 50 pp but i think there will be more cox sum of my cousin didnt cum..


here are sum of the pic i took..

singing in process

still processing

eating process

playing process

thing didnt turn out to be good.. my parent actually quarrel till veri bad ytd.. so sad and scary!! my sec sis and mi cried till veri badly in the morning.. hopefully they wun quarrel again..



ytd went down to find Will den actually we are suppose to go mum mum but in end becox of sum reason we cancel and i went home.. i am so disappointed!! in addition we quarrel at nitex.. tat why i am so moody today and i actually skip one of my lesson at 5pm and go home early at 1.30.. den sleep for 4hrs till 8pm and hab my dinner alone cox not a single pp was at home.. i am so lonely!!

the pic WILL and mi took ytd

but thing get better when my mother came home, she told me she saw a veri big snake ard the big LONG KANG which was just a few block away from my house.. =.="


den elder sis was back home later and she said her friend will be coming to bake brownie.. so another baking section was go on at my house.. so i jus hab a brownie wif ice-cream and tat was yummy!! haix getting fatter and fatter!! die die die..


interesting.. take a look

Girls,
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the boy who kisses your forhead,who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends,
who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."

Guys:
Find a girl who calls you immature in that affectionate way instead of hot or sexy,
who can't stand it when you hang up on her and calls right back,
who would sit there for hours looking into your eyes,
who doesn't care what you look like, but what's inside counts the most,
Who looks at you with the twinkle in her eyes and kisses you,
Wants to be with you in public, even if you wear those old grass stained and ripped pants with the bleached jersey like always,
Wait for the girl who is a constant reminder ofyour happiness and joy,
who makes you smile just by knowing she loves you back.
Wait for the girl who you give piggy back rides to in public and she still is in view of her friends,
while she gets off and you hear her go: "you're the one for me, for always"

this is interesting!! take a look >.<

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart
racing and is your voice caught within your chest??
It isn't , it's LIKE.

You can't keep your eyes or hands off of
her/him?
It isn't , it's LUST.


Are you proud, and eager to show
her/him off??
It isn't , it's LUCK.

Do you want her because you know
she's/he's there??
It isn't , it's LONELINESS.

Are you with her/him because it's what
everyone wants??
It isn't , its LOYALTY.

Are you with her because she/he kissed
you, orheld your hand?
It isn't , it's LOW CONFIDENCE.

Do you stay for her/him confessions of
love,because you don't want to hurt her/him?
It isn't , it's PITY.

Do you belong to her/him because the
sight of her/him makes your heart skip a beat??
It isn't , it's INFATUATION.

Do you pardon her faults because you
care about her/him?
It isn't , it's FRIENDSHIP.

Do you tell her/him every day she is the
only one you think of?
It isn't , it's a LIE.

Are you willing to give up all of your
favorite things for her sake?
It isn't , it's CHARITY.

Does your heart ache and break when
she's sad?
Then it's .

Do you cry for her/his pain, even when
she's/he's strong?
Then it's .

Do her/his eyes see your true heart, and
touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
Then it's .

Do you stay because a blinding,
incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close
and holds you to her/him?
Then it's .

Do you accept her/his faults because it's a
part of who she/he is?
Then it's .

Are you attracted to others, but stay with
her/him faithfully without regret??
Then it's .

Would you give her/him your heart, your
life, your death??
Then it's .


Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so,
why do we love?
Why is it all we search for in life?
This pain, this agony?
Why is it all we long for?
This torture, this powerful death of self?
Why?

The answer is so simple cause
it's.... It is
such an addictive thing that even people
who are not having it wish to experience it and
share it with others as well.

hurts our feeling, but it's also the
reason our soul heal..

But one day when u truly fall in ..
remember to let the someone know.. to suffer a
moment of embarrassment is better than letting your
happiness fly away forever...

so fast 2005 is coming to the end..


major decision made in this yr


+choosing nursing as my future career


+moving my house to yew tee


+being together with WiLL



new yr resolutions

+getting better result


+hohoho world peace


+everybody i noe to be save and healthy

happy new year!!

slept veri late this few day and my darkring were so obvious!! look so ugly!! i felt kinda gulity cox i didnt spend any of my holiday studying!! not even doing my e-learning.. so lazy!!



have a wonderful dinner wif WiLL jus now.. went back to my old house there to eat our fav chicken wing!! heexheex both of us were so hungry and we eat a total of 5 chicken wing.. yummy!!


today is my elder sis birthday!! both my sis and her bf went to eat California pizza wifout me.. so sad case!! this is wat i sacrifice for today dinner wif WiLL..


den when i reached home my sis was baking brownie.. but by the time i reached home it was already in the oven so i miss the baking process again.. T_T

baking in process

waiting in process

cooling in process

eating in process